Dear anonymous,
I can't be sure if these guys are asking me out or if they just want to hang out as friends but I am starting to get confused. Do they realise that I'm really annoying and that I don't have a lot of friends because I am rude and judgmental and horrible? Even if it just as friends... do they not get that? Have I begun to come off as a genuine human being? Because if I'm being honest, I don't even really know who I am. And if I don't know then how are they to know?
Love,
Michelle
Showing posts with label bad person. Show all posts
Showing posts with label bad person. Show all posts
Thursday, 6 June 2013
Sunday, 5 May 2013
Am I a bad person?
Dear anonymous,
Ashley, my sister, and I have been having a bunch of yelling sessions the last two days. Basically it revolves around her saying that I'm a bad person. Things like me constantly calling her stupid, putting her down, telling her that she can't do things like have her friends over are coming up a lot. I guess it's just making me wonder if I really am a bad person. I don't know. Maybe I'm just a horrible sister.
Love,
Michelle
Ashley, my sister, and I have been having a bunch of yelling sessions the last two days. Basically it revolves around her saying that I'm a bad person. Things like me constantly calling her stupid, putting her down, telling her that she can't do things like have her friends over are coming up a lot. I guess it's just making me wonder if I really am a bad person. I don't know. Maybe I'm just a horrible sister.
Love,
Michelle
Monday, 22 April 2013
Goodbye forever?
Dear anonymous,
Anita, one of the girls I lived with last year, is going back to Dubai forever because she is graduating this year. She's having a goodbye get together on Thursday night.
I'm holding a bit of a grudge though. Earlier this year she went behind my back to get information about me from Ethan, my don last year, about why I didn't get hired as a don for this September. When he told me about it, he said that she was fishing for information about whether it was because I self-harm. And it really got to me. That information was really personal and instead of asking me directly (which she could have done because I never explicitly hid any scars or anything from her) she went and asked a third party. And only because she wanted the information for herself.
So do I let go of the grudge and go say goodbye to someone that made me put up even more walls than I had before? Someone who I can't trust and doesn't care for me in any way? Or seemingly so? On one hand, that whole situation happened and really affected me for the worse (it doesn't seem very bad when it's written down but, it felt like I'd lost any and all trust in her). On the other hand, she is literally leaving the country forever.
I don't know. Maybe this grudge is stupid.
Love,
Michelle
Anita, one of the girls I lived with last year, is going back to Dubai forever because she is graduating this year. She's having a goodbye get together on Thursday night.
I'm holding a bit of a grudge though. Earlier this year she went behind my back to get information about me from Ethan, my don last year, about why I didn't get hired as a don for this September. When he told me about it, he said that she was fishing for information about whether it was because I self-harm. And it really got to me. That information was really personal and instead of asking me directly (which she could have done because I never explicitly hid any scars or anything from her) she went and asked a third party. And only because she wanted the information for herself.
So do I let go of the grudge and go say goodbye to someone that made me put up even more walls than I had before? Someone who I can't trust and doesn't care for me in any way? Or seemingly so? On one hand, that whole situation happened and really affected me for the worse (it doesn't seem very bad when it's written down but, it felt like I'd lost any and all trust in her). On the other hand, she is literally leaving the country forever.
I don't know. Maybe this grudge is stupid.
Love,
Michelle
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