Dear anonymous,
Sometimes I'm not sure if it's just me or if it has to do with everything that has happened with every person I have ever trusted but, it really isn't worth it to me to try and let people in to my life anymore. I can meet someone new and they can make all the effort but, at this point, I have put up such incredible walls that even I can't imagine myself getting over them. There has not been a time since summer of 2012 that I have felt like I can let someone in and be okay with it. Whether it was the situation with Josh or Chris or Ethan or anyone else in my life at any point in time, I always think back on it and decide it really isn't worth it. If I can keep my distance, I can keep safe. Perhaps I am just a bitter young lady who will later turn in to a bitter old woman but, in all honesty, I'd rather be bitter than hurt again.
Love,
Michelle
