Dear anonymous,
I am currently seated on my bed in a barren room (other than the numerous garbage bags full of clothes and baskets full of crap) blogging about moving out. Am I a stereotypical blogger yet?
This is it. The last night that I will be staying in this place I have called home for the last 8 months. The posters are down, the photos are in plastic page protectors, the fairy lights are wrapped up in a box and the dressers are empty. Tomorrow morning, I'll take apart my wonderful IKEA bed and move the first of my stuff to the new condo I'll be living in. Wednesday morning the rest of it will go in a big 10 foot uHaul.
Wow. 8 months has flown by. I can't say I'll miss it too much. The year has had its ups and downs and living here has definitely has its ups and downs, too. Mostly I'm excited for the next chapter of my life. Fourth year, new condo in downtown Toronto, living with my sister, commuting back to school. It's all going to be so new. I have come to embrace new experiences though.
So here's to a fun move (not!) and lots of new experiences in the year to come!
Love,
Michelle
Showing posts with label experience. Show all posts
Showing posts with label experience. Show all posts
Monday, 29 April 2013
Thursday, 25 April 2013
Time to reply?
Dear anonymous,
For the past month 25 days I have used the excuse that finals were coming and I didn't need more distractions than necessary. It has come to the point that I feel I need to reply to Josh though. To be fair I am moving in 5 days to Toronto so I could use that as another excuse. As I sit here watching Justin Timberlake sing Mirrors on Ellen though (sidenote: he is sexier than sex), I can't help but feel that it's not fair to not reply to him and keep making excuses.
The thing is... he took 3.5 months to reply to me. So in reality, is it about fairness? I think maybe I'm just pressuring myself to answer because I still don't know what I want. The pressure of replying makes me have to think about everything I don't want to.
Do I risk putting my heart on the line again? Do I trust him? Is there even a way things can be normal again? What happens if it turns out that he only responded to my letter because he is thinking about breaking up with his girlfriend? Will I let myself be the girl that he goes back to time and time again? There are so many questions. I don't want to face any of them.
Love,
Michelle
For the past month 25 days I have used the excuse that finals were coming and I didn't need more distractions than necessary. It has come to the point that I feel I need to reply to Josh though. To be fair I am moving in 5 days to Toronto so I could use that as another excuse. As I sit here watching Justin Timberlake sing Mirrors on Ellen though (sidenote: he is sexier than sex), I can't help but feel that it's not fair to not reply to him and keep making excuses.
The thing is... he took 3.5 months to reply to me. So in reality, is it about fairness? I think maybe I'm just pressuring myself to answer because I still don't know what I want. The pressure of replying makes me have to think about everything I don't want to.
Do I risk putting my heart on the line again? Do I trust him? Is there even a way things can be normal again? What happens if it turns out that he only responded to my letter because he is thinking about breaking up with his girlfriend? Will I let myself be the girl that he goes back to time and time again? There are so many questions. I don't want to face any of them.
Love,
Michelle
Monday, 22 April 2013
A defense mechanism?
Dear anonymous,
Lately every time I have a conversation with Ethan, I tend to be really sarcastic. Especially if he tries to be nice.
Example: tonight told me that he misses living in Roy Ivor, the building we used to live in. In reference to us being able to hang out. In response, I said that the only thing I missed was having a window (I now live in a basement).
Think this is a defense mechanism? Seems like it to me.
Love,
Michelle
Lately every time I have a conversation with Ethan, I tend to be really sarcastic. Especially if he tries to be nice.
Example: tonight told me that he misses living in Roy Ivor, the building we used to live in. In reference to us being able to hang out. In response, I said that the only thing I missed was having a window (I now live in a basement).
Think this is a defense mechanism? Seems like it to me.
Love,
Michelle
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