Missing you.

Dear anonymous,

It's just one of those days. The ones you spend in a world of nostalgia and regret. Memories have been creeping into my mind all day. All of them.

I miss Josh. I miss him so much. I re-read the message he sent me ages ago. April 1, 2013. He said it wasn't a joke but, it turns out he was wrong. Nothing in the message happened. We couldn't fix us. There was no way to make us us again. It hurts. Like always.

Then I started missing Ethan. This time, I wasn't angry. I just missed him. You see, normally it is both. Not this time. All I feel is the missing him part. And here I am, thinking about messaging him like he messaged me. But it hurts. Like always.

Today is just one of those days. It needs to end.

M