Maybe?

Dear anonymous,

I read a quote today where the person said they were used to being a maybe or sometimes but, they wanted to be an everything or always. It made me stop. There are so many times that I felt that way but, I could never really put it into words. When I read those words though, I knew that was it.

In my life, I have always been a maybe and a sometimes. Both guys that I have fallen in love with have treated me like a maybe and a sometimes. My family treats me like a maybe and a sometimes. Even my friends make me feel that way.

It's hard realising this. It never occurred to me that I could be an always or an everything. That I could have some sort of permanence or significance to somebody. Isn't that scary? Everyone should be able to feel like they are everything to somebody or that they are always wanted.

So I am going to make a promise to myself. From now on, I won't let anybody treat me like a maybe or a sometimes. I will demand to be an always or an everything. Because I deserve that. I deserve to feel like I matter.

Love,
Michelle